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2023.06.10 23:19 Rude-Worry-6128 Thank You

Today I am 32 days sober. That doesn't sound like a lot but for me it's absolutely outstanding! I havn't been sober a single day in over 10 years. I've taken advice from this group and read stories to help. Used the resources here to find a group I can attend on zoom wich is much better for me than in person meetings. It really is amazing to hear other people say they have the exact feelings and thoughts that I do and put those into perspective for me. I was off work today and drove past my usual liquor store and almost stopped for a tall boy because I felt I had everything under control. I opened this app when I chose not to and got home and the very first thing I read was a story of someone else having these same internal struggles. Thank you everyone for sharing and helping and using your time to help a complete stranger.
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2023.06.10 23:19 idkwhatimdoing_505 22f 22m is this even worth it anymore?

is this even worth it anymore?
i 22f and my husband 22m have been married for less than 6 months. our relationship before was really “complicated” meaning he got me pregnant , cheated on me , i miscarried , he cheated , we got married, i found out that right before we got married he sold all the pics and videos of me naked to this girl who was “blackmailing him” (for 85$). I was financially dependent on him but things ended up working out to where as long as we’re married my portion of rent is paid. i’m trying to get through school so he said i could stay home and he would work. after less than 4 months of being in school he’s telling me to get a job because he’s tired of taking care of me and supporting my dogs as well. a part of me truly loves him but i’m so tired of feeling like just a sex toy to him. he doesn’t ever want to talk ab anything, he literally just fights with me and goes to bed then repeat. rarely do we get a moment of peace. i would’ve left by now but i’m across the country from any family i have (barely any) and even if i wanted to they wouldn’t help me get out of this. he makes me feel ugly, stupid. i wouldn’t go as far to say he’s abusive but i really get heavy narcissist vibes from him. literally is this even worth it to keep trying with him. i’m not perfect, i’m emotional (also currently pregnant again) , impulsive and honestly i could be a real bi*^ if i really wanted to. he thinks that’s just who i am but doesn’t ever take a second to look at his actions. is it even worth it to be keep trying? or should i just take the loss & be homeless for awhile?
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2023.06.10 23:19 Akshat_rk Favorite local coffee shop. Location and Why?

Beginning my digital nomadic life in Europe this Sep after a few years in the US and India. As you can guess, am a big fan of local coffee shops that are about culture, community and of course, good ol’ coffee.
Making my itinerary around hidden coffee gems and an easy going city.
Curious to learn what hit home for you recently and something you’d advice me/ other folks to visit. Grateful :)
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2023.06.10 23:18 Menace2Myself_ I’d rather be dead than have BPD

So, this is may be a little long but I’m going to put it out there because I need to get it out. Over the last year, I have struggled heavily with my BPD. I went into depressive/suicidal spirals, I’d split at the drop of a hat, my anxiety was so bad that I didn’t want to be alone but at the same time I’d disassociate from whoever I was with. I was a shell with unpredictable explosive emotions. I shut my husband out during this time and said some awful things. A few months ago I was nearly hospitalized for suicidal thoughts but was let go with a safety plan and started therapy. I honestly think therapy is helping. I have consciously made an effort to make sure I communicate my emotions with my husband so that he understands them just like my therapist has said. I have acknowledged and apologized profusely for the pain I caused during that time, and I have literally tried to put in 110% to repair what I nearly broke. Since then he has brought up several times how awful I was and how he would rather die than to live like that again. He asked me about something specific I said to him while I was splitting and I told him I didn’t mean it. He then said “When you say shit I don’t know if it’s you or your BPD talking. I don’t even know who my wife is” I am trying so freaking hard and doing anything I can to show I am making an effort and I’m sorry and I’m trying to learn to deal with this the best I can and maybe one day be able to say I no longer meet the criteria. I reminded him that I admit I was awful and that I’m trying and then he accused me of throwing my efforts on his face. I hate the damage I have done to everyone I’ve ever tried to have any kind of relationship with. I can’t even stand myself. I would have never chosen this fate for myself if I had the choice between it and not existing at all.
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2023.06.10 23:18 Artistic-Display-731 I don’t know anymore

This is going to be really long.. I don’t know what to do anymore…. I needed other people’s thoughts and to feel like I’m not alone, I’m 30 when i was 18 or around there i was told i had ibs and Gerd but I never had problems besides occasional constipation, This last March at the end i had severe constipation gi doctor gave me linzess for ibs c and i ended up with severe diarrhea and stomach pain and burning i ended up in the ER they said i had colitis gave me strong antibiotics, soon after my left side started to hurt off an on but i felt fine otherwise. End of April I ended up in the hospital for 4 days with pneumonia i was really sick, on very strong antibiotics basically round the clock i got out and was on a very strong antibiotic for 4 days at home they did have me on a probiotic, my chest started to hurt soon after i got home they said it was pleurisy but a week of advil and Tylenol then prednisone did nothing for it, 2 weeks later i was extremely constipated my stomach started to hurt a lot and burn even in my chest, my stomach spasming or something is, my gi doctor wouldn’t do anything for me because they said all anti acids make me sick, i finally got my primary doctor to put me on carafate to coat my stomach and pantropazole, i thought i was doing better for a week or 2 i felt mostly better i was even trying to eat low fodmap foods, i‘ve lost so much weight between the acid and upset stomach. Last week i started having some diarrhea it kept coming and going then i had a severe headache Money-Wednesday with stomach pain and weirdly sweating and really tired I also had my monthly. All i can taste is acid since last week. I thought maybe it was the pantropazole so I stopped taking that I haven’t had anymore diarrhea and my head stopped hurting but since last week and today all i can taste is acid and today it feels like someone lit my chest on fire inside and my armpits are sweating don’t know if the sweating has anything to do with it. I’ve been taking the carafate again for a week almost seems like it is not working this time. i even took another anti acid famotidine from the store this morning and the severe burning wont stop, i had an upperscope on May 22nd they claimed there was nothing. I feel like I’m losing my mind in all this pain and not getting answers i don’t know how people live like this or what to do anymore. I don’t know if i should even go to the emergency room I’m tired of going to the emergency room. I don’t know how to live in all this pain it’s making my anxiety and depression crazy I know that doesn’t help GI issues but how do you not have them when you’re miserable, I’m so lost on what to think or do anymore I thought i was getting somewhat better and feel like I’m alone with a GI doctor that wont do much
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2023.06.10 23:18 JoshAsdvgi The Snake With the Big Feet

The Snake With the Big Feet

The Snake With the Big Feet
Long ago, in that far-off happy time when the world was new, and there were no white people at all, only Indians and animals, there was a snake who was different from other snakes.
He had feet-big feet.
And the other snakes, because he was different, hated him, and made life wretched for him. Finally, they drove him away from the country where the snakes lived, saying,
"A good long way from here live other ugly creatures with feet like yours.
Go and live with them!" And the poor, unhappy Snake had to go away.
For days and days, he travelled.
The weather grew cold and food became hard to find.
At last, exhausted, his feet cut and frostbitten, he lay down on the bank of a river to die.
The Deer, E-se-ko-to-ye, looked out of a willow thicket, and saw the Snake lying on the river bank.
Pitying him, the deer took the Snake into his own lodge and gave him food and medicine for his bleeding feet.
The Deer told the Snake that there were indeed creatures with feet like his who would befriend him, but that some among these would be enemies whom it would be necessary to kill before he could reach safety.
He showed the Snake how to make a shelter for protection from the cold and taught him how to make moccasins of deerskin to protect his feet.
And at dawn the Snake continued his journey.
The sun was far down the western sky, and it was bitter cold when the Snake made camp the next night.
As he gathered boughs for a shelter, Kais-kap the porcupine appeared.
Shivering, the Porcupine asked him, "Will you give me shelter in your lodge for the night?"
The Snake said, "It's very little that I have, but you are welcome to share it."
"I am grateful," said Kais-kap, "and perhaps I can do something for you.
Those are beautiful moccasins, brother, but they do not match your skin.
Take some of my quills, and make a pattern on them, for good luck." So they worked a pattern on the moccasins with the porcupine quills, and the Snake went on his way again.
As the Deer had told him, he met enemies.
Three times he was challenged by hostile Indians, and three times he killed his adversary.
At last he met an Indian who greeted him in a friendly manner.
The Snake had no gifts for this kindly chief, so he gave him the moccasins.
And that, so the old Ones say, was how our people first learned to make moccasins of deerskin, and to ornament them with porcupine quills in patterns, like those on the back of a snake.
And from that day on the Snake lived in the lodge of the chief, counting his coup of scalps with the warriors by the Council fire and, for a long time, was happy.
But the chief had a daughter who was beautiful and kind, and the Snake came to love her very much indeed.
He wished that he were human, so that he might marry the maiden, and have his own lodge.
He knew there was no hope of this unless the High Gods, the Above Spirits took pity on him, and would perform a miracle on his behalf.
But the chief had a daughter who was beautiful and kind, and the Snake came to love her very much indeed.
He wished that he were human, so that he might marry the maiden, and have his own lodge.
He knew there was no hope of this unless the High Gods, the Above Spirits took pity on him, and would perform a miracle on his behalf.
So he fasted and prayed for many, many days.
But all his fasting and praying had no result, and at last the Snake came very ill.
Now, in the tribe, there was a very highly skilled Medicine Man.
Mo'ki-ya was an old man, so old that he had seen and known, and understood, everything that came within the compass of his people's lives, and many things that concerned the Spirits.
Many times, his lodge was seen to sway with the Ghost Wind, and the voices of those long gone on to the Sand Hills spoke to him.
Mo'ki-ya came to where the Snake lay in the chief's lodge, and sending all the others away, asked the Snake what his trouble was.
"It is beyond even your magic," said the Snake, but he told Mo'ki-ya about his love for the maiden, and his desire to become a man so that he could marry her.
Mo'ki-ya sat quietly thinking for a while.
Then he said, "I shall go on a journey, brother.
Perhaps my magic can help, perhaps not.
We shall see when I return." And he gathered his medicine bundles and disappeared. It was a long and fearsome journey that Mo'ki-ya made.
He went to the shores of a great lake.
He climbed a high mountain, and he took the matter to Nato'se, the Sun himself.
And Nato'se listened, for this man stood high in the regard of the spirits, and his medicine was good.
He did not ask, and never had asked, for anything for himself, and to transform the Snake into a brave of the tribe was not a difficult task for the High Gods.
The third day after the arrival of Mo'ki-ya at the Sun's abode, Nato'se said to him, "Return to your own lodge Mo'ki-ya, and build a fire of small sticks.
Put many handfuls of sweet-grass on the fire, and when the smoke rises thickly, lay the body of the Snake in the middle of it."
And Mo'ki-ya came back to his own land.
The fire was built in the centre of the Medicine lodge, as the Sun had directed, and when the sweetgrass smouldered among the embers, sending the smoke rolling in great billows through the tepee, Mo'ki-ya gently lifted the Snake, now very nearly dead, and placed him in the fire so that he was hidden by the smoke.
The Medicine-drum whispered softly in the dusk of the lodge: the chant of the old men grew a little louder, and then the smoke obscuring the fire parted like a curtain, and a young man stepped out.
Great were the rejoicings in the camp that night.
The Snake, now a handsome young brave, was welcomed into the tribe with the ceremonies befitting the reception of one shown to be high in the favour of the spirits.
The chief gladly gave him his daughter, happy to have a son law of such distinction.
Many brave sons and beautiful daughters blessed the lodge of the Snake and at last, so the Old ones say, his family became a new tribe-the Pe-sik-na-ta-pe, or Snake Indians.
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2023.06.10 23:18 BipolarMindAtNotEase I almost died when I was a child because of my father

When I was little, my mother was an attending physician in neurology. She was on call at least a night a week. Sometimes more if there was a really demanding case.
My father never really cared for us while she was gone. He used to leave me alone with renovators and plumbers in our house when I was like 7 to visit a friend of his.
When I was 8, I got really sick and my fever was around 38.5 degrees Celcius (101.3 in Fahrenheit). It wouldn't go down so my father took me to the emergency room. For some reason, he didn't take me to the emergency room my mother was in.
The doctor there concluded that I needed antibiotics and asked my father if I was allergic to penicillin. He immediately said no.
My mother knew at the time that he would be incompetent and she had me memorize "I am allergic to penicillin" when I was 4. She made up a song and everything.
I blurted thay I was allergic to the doctor and my doctor immediately turned to my father. He called my mother and turned out, yes I was deathly allergic.
My father got really angry at me after we got home. He acted as though I did it to demean him or something. And as a child, I remember feeling really bad about it. He made his child feel bad for potentially saving her own life.
More than a decade later, my mother finally divorced him and he, while knowing I am chronically ill, never calls me. Only when he needs money, which I never give.
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2023.06.10 23:18 Cl0udy_axol0tl Tifu by almost choking my cat

So i was coming home and i was trying to pet him and idk what got into me but i did like a choking grip i didn't VHOCK CHOCK him like he's fine but i fucking hate myself for it i hate it sm and i idk why i even did it probably cuteness agression but i hate myself so much for it WHY TF DID I DO JT
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2023.06.10 23:17 SufficientNebula417 25 [F4M] Looking for "the one"

Hey everyone,
I'm a single, ambitious, adventurous and independent woman looking for something real and meaningful. I'm a lil bit of an introvert, however I still love to do outdoor fun activities and explore new foods, places and things. I'm a true foodie and I'm more into mature men, between 25 to 30's and up.
I'm looking for someone who's ready to take the next step and figure out what the next chapter in life has in store. Looking for someone who will bring joy and laughter into my life as much as I will into theirs.
I'm only looking to connect with someone residing in or near the USA.
I'm looking for someone who wants to explore the world with me and create fun and unforgettable memories from it. I'm all for adventure and trying new things. If you think you got what it takes to capture my heart and join me in living our lives to the fullest, let's get to know each other, my Dm's open waiting for you.
I'm only looking to connect with someone residing in the USA.
Hope to hear from you soon!
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2023.06.10 23:17 EstimateExciting3509 My Experience With Seeing A UFO Up Close

This happened about 14 years ago.
Mid November, around 3:10am, in the Hanover, VA area.
I was driving home. I was the only car on the road and it was a cloudless night. I looked over to my left and saw what, I thought at the time, was a meteor falling to earth. It was quite a ways away and it had a bright orange/red tail. I couldn’t keep track of it on the winding roads and houses/trees lining the road. I didn’t think much of it…until. I turned right on the road that led to my neighborhood. The road winds in an S shape, then opens up to a fairly visible area. As soon as I made my way through that S, I looked to the left, and there was - about 2 stories high and 200 feet away - a dark silver UFO.
I froze. I had never believed in aliens or anything like that before. The craft moved over top of my car (about a single story above my car). It was smooth, made no sound, was triangular, and had 3 blue “lights” at each point. I say “lights” because it seemed more like some form of reaction (chemical or otherwise) causing the blue light.
My car is barely moving at this point (my foot is off the gas and my radio had shut off). All I can think is “what the fk, what the fk, what the f**k” when suddenly, flashes of what my house looked liked came to my mind. The number of my house and where it was located came to my mind. As soon as I realized what I was thinking, I immediately was like "what are you doing? stop thinking that!"
As soon as I forced myself to stop thinking that, the craft started to move forward and up away from my car, right in the direction of my neighborhood. I knew they were going to my house. In my gut, I knew.
I was so scared, I drove though the neighborhood, doing laps, about 4 times - trying to see where it went. I didn't see it. I contemplated sleeping in my car, in the driveway - but chose against it out of fear of seeing aliens approach my car while half asleep.
It took every ounce of courage to go into my house. I knew they were in my house when I opened the door and the house was dark and silent. I had 3 dogs (one being a beagle, a basset hound, and a terrier). They always barked anytime the door was opened.
The house was SO dark and SO quiet and I ran down the hall into the bathroom. I locked the door and tried to calm down. I sat in my bathroom for about 20 minutes trying to figure out what to do. Then, I was terrified to open the door. What if it was standing right in front of the door when I opened it? There wasn’t anything I could use as a weapon in the bathroom. I think I grabbed a brush, haha. I then was like “ok, calm down….just brush your teeth, pee, then rush to your bedroom and lock the door”. Which I did.
I immediately turned the lights on and got in bed. I prayed to God to not let me remember anything. I was like “this is already too much for me to comprehend. Please don’t let me remember if something happens. I can’t handle it. It will break me mentally. If they are going to abduct me or whatever, please don’t let me remember it” and then I went to bed.
There have been a few times since that experience where I lost time (once was with someone else - about 8 hours lost for us both) and some experiences where I have woken up with weird markings on my body, but no more UFO sightings.
I also had what seems like a dream - I’m not sure - of a small, about 4 foot tall, being that had this kind of light/dirty brownish color skin (almost like a latte with a lot of cream and milk in it) and it had MASSIVE black eyes. In the dream/fracture of memory I was running down the hallway in my house and ran into the room closest to the front door and went to slam it shut. This thing’s head was caught between the door and the doorframe. And it made this god awful sound (like gurgling kind of) and then I went to punch it and that’s all I remember
After this experience, I spent about two years terrified to go to sleep. I would literally stay awake until I physically couldn’t anymore. About 3 years later, I was diagnosed with PTSD by a therapist (who did not know about this experience). I am in a much better place now mentally than I was 10 years ago. Even though I cannot remember what happened, I still feel this primal fear if I think about it too long. But, I’m not AS terrified as I was back then. I had a lot of things that I had to comprehend and come to peace with (like the fact that aliens are real). But I don’t believe they are nefarious. My best guess is that I was “tagged” - like marine biologists do to whales or sharks - but, I don’t really know.
Thank you for allowing a safe space for me to feel comfortable sharing. I have only told 2 people this my entire life out of fear of ridicule.
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2023.06.10 23:17 flannelshirt77 New investor - what would you do in my situation?

I have about $60,000 in equity on my primary residence. About 10K in cash to play with. Licensed agent for four years and also on and operate a home-improvement business. Would love to get into flipping or rentals. What would you do if you were me?
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2023.06.10 23:17 6745408 /r/ikeahacks will be going dark from June 12-14 in protest against Reddit's API changes which kill 3rd party apps (and all the other bullshit)

hey team! You most likely know the drill by now. This sub will close up for a few days. The full paste is below.
As always, PM me if you have any questions about this.

This subreddit will be joining in on the June 12th-14th protest of Reddit's API changes that will essentially kill all 3rd party Reddit apps.

What's going on?

A recent Reddit policy change threatens to kill many beloved third-party mobile apps, making a great many quality-of-life features not seen in the official mobile app permanently inaccessible to users.
On May 31, 2023, Reddit announced they were raising the price to make calls to their API from being free to a level that will kill every third party app on Reddit, from Apollo to Reddit is Fun to Narwhal to BaconReader.
Even if you're not a mobile user and don't use any of those apps, this is a step toward killing other ways of customizing Reddit, such as Reddit Enhancement Suite or the use of the desktop interface .
This isn't only a problem on the user level: many subreddit moderators depend on tools only available outside the official app to keep their communities on-topic and spam-free.

What's the plan?

On June 12th, many subreddits will be going dark to protest this policy. Some will return after 48 hours: others will go away permanently unless the issue is adequately addressed, since many moderators aren't able to put in the work they do with the poor tools available through the official app. This isn't something any of us do lightly: we do what we do because we love Reddit, and we truly believe this change will make it impossible to keep doing what we love.
The two-day blackout isn't the goal, and it isn't the end. Should things reach the 14th with no sign of Reddit choosing to fix what they've broken, we'll use the community and buzz we've built between then and now as a tool for further action.

What can you do as a user?

  • Complain. Message the mods of /, who are the admins of the site: message reddit: submit a support request: comment in relevant threads on /reddit, such as this one, leave a negative review on their official iOS or Android app- and sign your username in support to this post.
  • Spread the word. Rabble-rouse on related subreddits. Meme it up, make it spicy. Bitch about it to your cat. Suggest anyone you know who moderates a subreddit join the coordinated mod effort at /ModCoord.
  • Boycott and spread the Reddit's competition! Stay off Reddit entirely on June 12th through the 13th- instead, take to your favorite non-Reddit platform of choice and make some noise in support!
  • Don't be a jerk. As upsetting this may be, threats, profanity and vandalism will be worse than useless in getting people on our side. Please make every effort to be as restrained, polite, reasonable and law-abiding as possible.

What can you do as a moderator?

Thank you for your patience in the matter,
me... the only mod.
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2023.06.10 23:17 orfane No more breakdowns for the foreseeable future

I've greatly enjoyed making these breakdowns, and am thrilled everyone has enjoyed them as well! Unfortunately, Reddit is making some choices regarding the site and API that I am pretty opposed to. I don't feel comfortable promoting products they profit from, nor giving them content they will be forcing others to pay for.
In light of that, I have deleted my previous breakdowns and will not be posting my remaining ones. If you took pictures for me or donated any avatars I have left those breakdowns in place.
Hopefully something gets worked out with Reddit in the near future. I'm not sure what would be "enough" for me to want to start back up again, so it remains an open question for now. I'll still be in the sub/discord for trades (need that Eryth!) so I'm not quitting the project, just the content production.
If anyone wants to take up the Breakdown mantel, best of luck!
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2023.06.10 23:16 Tacticalscheme What type of job for no experience new CDL driver

Got my free schooling approved and going in July. Buddy was working a dollar general account and making a ton of money ($2500 in a week his best week) but now isn't getting loads and is waiting around for multiple days not getting paid ($1400 last 2 weeks). I've been looking at other jobs now, local LTL/Tanker or Regional. I want something that will just get me my 1yr experience, the money can come later. I just want the experience, training, steady work history without working 70 hours/week or waiting around not getting paid. Being home daily would be a big plus but not required, I would be willing to go regional. With this in mind, should I work for a regional company a gas company or LTL? Also, any company recommendations are appreciated. Im located by Lincoln and Omaha Nebraska. Thinking about getting my endorsements straight out of school so I could possibly get a tankehazmat job as well.
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2023.06.10 23:16 StayTiny_0325 i don't wanna be friends with my freind anymore

I feel so stupid for asking for advice on Reddit but I really don't know how to approach this situation and I think my other friends don't know enough about this or just don't wanna hear it anymore.
There is a sorta long TLDR at the end cuz this shit's about to be LOOOONG.
This friend, let's call her Carly and I have been "friends" since our first day of elementary school - we're in 11th grade. I'm quoting friends because I really don't wanna count our elementary years. We used to be in a trio-friendship and when I say it was bad, it was BAD. She was our leader and was ALWAYS mad at either me or the other girl. So mad (for no reason whatsoever btw) that she would legit RUN AWAY from us. I'm not kidding. I've chased her down several times, trying to figure out what I did wrong this time - which I btw never got an answer to once. Why did I stick with her? I had no one else. I, as an introverted and extremely awkward girl was dependent on her. If she ran, I would chase like my life depended on it. Everything would be forgotten the next day until her brain decided that it was time to be mad at someone again. In third grade, there was actually an incident that I really regret not handling properly. Carly's "boyfriend" at the time punched me in my abdomen after she told him to do so. You'd think I would actually stop being her friend, right? Like, how sad does your life have to be, to continue on with the friendship like nothing happened? Right... We probably hung out two days later even though I never even got a proper apology that wasn't forced by teachers.
In 7th grade, I actually took a big step for myself by telling her that I just couldn't be her best friend anymore. I was stupid enough to add that we could be casual friends since we know each other so well and it would be hard to just completely forget about the other. And that did work at first. We were both n the same friend group but I found myself another best friend and she stuck with the third girl from elementary. It really was just kinda casual. But when she and her bestie had a fallout I was forced to grow closer with her again. It's been a year now and I just can't do it anymore tbh.
No matter how hard I try, I hold such an overdramatically huge grudge against her. At times I find myself blaming her for "ruining" my life. She did give me trust issues and almost made me run away from home but it just isn't all her. I guess she also made me this extremely socially anxious and awkward girl since she would always freak out on me if I spent more time with someone else than her. I basically "wasn't allowed" to have other friends. But can I really blame her for that? No. I technically didn't have to do a single thing she told me to.
What also makes this really hard is that she clearly sees me as a good friend of hers. She still thinks we both live in this beautiful world where everything is great and we're "sisters" like in the good old days. She sees me as her closest friend.
But to me? God, I feel like a horrible person for saying this, but she talks so damn much and I just need her to kindly shut up sometimes. All her jokes that I used to laugh at just aren't it anymore but became extremely odd, annoying, and just CRINGE af. I find her cringe. She also feels the need to always comment on everything in class so she actually won't stop talking when I'm trying to concentrate (she sits in front of me and always turns around to make some of these too but I hear her loud af "whispers" anyway). The point is: I probably dislike her more than I like her by now and we both deserve better for that.
a few days ago she send me a lengthy message where she apologized after all those years for what a bad friend she's been and that she's lucky I've stuck to her. And I just have the urge to finally tell her that this conversation shouldn't even be happening cause I should have dumped her in elementary already.
BUTTTT there's another thing. She's mentally not very... stable. Nor healthy (diagnosed anxiety and depression + she's been to a clinic multiple times and takes meds). This also explains why she used to be the demon in elementary that she was. That doesn't really justify me getting hurt, though. Or does it? I just don't know at this point. I feel like I'm being selfish for not understanding that she maybe didn't want to hurt me. She also attempted su!c!de like a year or two ago and I'm scared that she might hurt herself if I cut her off further. I just don't wanna be responsible for this cause I know that she is not a bad person.
Nevertheless, she's still annoying to me and if I'm being an asshole rn then she at least deserves a better friend than me that actually likes hanging out with her. I'm just not sure how I should tell her that and what I should her exactly or maybe what I should rather leave out.
TLDR: After a long, pretty toxic friendship with a mentally unstable person (she has diagnosed anxiety & depression, been to a clinic, has attempted yk, takes meds, etc.), I just hold too big of a grudge against her to be friends with her anymore. She send me a truthful-sounding apology message for how bad of a friend she was (not addressing anything specifically) and I kinda wanna give her an honest response. My feelings towards her have changed; her jokes aren't funny anymore but rather odd and I find her to be quite cringe and annoying now. If you think I'm just being rude, consider that she also just deserves a friend that actually likes her instead and/or read the whole post.
My point/question is: I don't know what to say/what to leave out to not hurt her further iykwim.
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2023.06.10 23:16 Key-Indication-8085 Not 1 day into a work trip

I (39M) had to leave the country for a work trip and literally not 5 hours into checking into the hotel, wife (39F) calls, roughly 6 AM here, and splits on me. She's devaluing me and dumping all these accusations on me and how I've given her this trauma. No idea I had this coming and unfortunately couldn't set the record function on phone.
Basically she goes off on how I supposedly mistreat her our whole relationship and she wonders why I haven't left them yet. Claiming I never initiated any phone calls to her while on work trips in the past, which isn't true. I try to defend and explain how that isn't true but she isn't hearing any of it. Says I mistreated her while she stayed home alone with no-one to talk to. She goes on about how ever since my stepmother came over one day and asked her if she was schizophrenic that I've been treating her differently and keeping our daughter (4F) away from her, not true as she's the one avoiding us. How I've slept on the couch and created drama, which she made me do ironically when she would split heavy on me and start call me every name in the book in front of our daughter.
She continues to claim I was on dating sites and talking to someone on the playstation too. That one is always funny to me as I never talked to anyone on playstation and she has access to the history on it. She's also the one who hopped on dating sites after our relationship to try and date women, when she wanted to open up the relationship because she had so much love to give and crap. Only thing I did do was not delete my old dating app when we started dating. After she made it an issue one night, I immediately deleted it and never looked back at any sites. But she vehemently claims I've been on several since. Just can't win this argument at all.
She claims she remembers all our conversations perfectly and knows I'll just deny or say I forgot. Well, I do forget conversations, I know my memory is crappy in the regard but I also know she forgets things I tell her constantly. She brings up past conversations where she read too much into them and holds them against me. One was where she suspected and asked me if I was gay and if I'd ever turn gay in the future. I had told her no, I was not gay but I can't claim to know about the future. I explained to her that asking me if I'll turn gay in the future is like asking me if there'll be a tornado or not next year, I have no way of knowing so I won't say yes or no to such a question. Well, she moves on seeing she can't argue with me on that one again.
Another situation she brings up is about how she suspected something happened to our child in child care one time and brought it up to my attention. She claims I just told her our kid is ok and then turned back to play a game. I don't recall this interaction at all but she uses it to justify how I don't listen to her or how I'm supposedly ignoring the well being of our child. Mind you, I've been the one handling our child's healthcare, school, therapy, meals, mornings, bedtime, and playing with her. Shoot, I checked our indoor security camera the day after this call, which she made me install in the house due to some paranoia about people following her home, and she's upstairs watching tv or something while our daughters been downstairs all day watching cartoons. Her grandmother offered to take her to the zoo or someplace today but my wife is choosing to ignore it.
She goes on and tells me about how she thinks I'm a conniving liar and even my family is out to get her. This upsets me and I tell her I don't like being treated like I'm some bastard or something. This triggers her and she responds that I shouldn't put words in her mouth and called me a narcissist. Try to tell her that is not what I said and that I feel like I'm being treated one, but no winning that one either.
Well, she gets upset about my trying to respond to her many claims and says that's not the point at all. It's about how I've made her felt during the whole relationship and I need to stop responding to individual claims and respond to the whole point. That confused me as I'm thinking I should respond to each claim and show how it's false instead of admitting to it and saying I'm sorry to claims I never did. As if she wants me to admit fault to things I never did just because of how she feels. She talks about how her physical health has been hurting due to all the things she held onto, the trauma and supposed abuse. How she won't be some stupid person who'll kill herself for some man. She has her daughter to live for and take care of, funny because I'm the one taking care of both of them. But the suicide remark does trigger a concern, even if she doesn't claim she will the thought itself has me wondering about her mental health while she watches our child alone.
Eventually she tells me to get off the phone because she's driving as she's telling me all this and she missed her turn because of the call. So I hang up after telling our daughter goodbye, as she's in the car with her mother during all this too. I really dislike how she tends to have these splits and go off on me in front of our daughter. All I can do after this is journal the interaction and prepare to get a few more consultations after I get home in a few weeks. I wonder if the this episode is due to her being responsible for taking care of our kid while I'm gone now and she's not handling how attention seeking our kid can be. This'll be another interaction to go over with my therapist too when I get back.
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2023.06.10 23:16 bnr32jason Ayaneo 2 - A Six Month Review and Commentary - Far Too Late, But Oh Well

Ayaneo 2 - A Six Month Review and Commentary - Far Too Late, But Oh Well

FFVII Intergrade Runs Smooth 30FPS at 1080p Low at 16 watts

Going to try to keep this short, but share some of my thoughts, some go against the popular commentary in this sub, and some go right along with everyone else. There will be some minor comparisons to my Steam Deck, but not really that much. This is a small sub, I'm not going to spend an hour writing up a giant review for 30 people to read and half of them to downvote because I say things they don't like.
- Who am I / Background - Just a simple gamer, console, PC, handheld, arcade, mobile, gacha, retro, modern, streaming, Xbox, PS, Sega, etc. Basically all of it, I just like playing games. I'm not a PCMR guy, but I do have a pretty good PC (3960x, 3080, etc). I don't NEED to max out performance, I'm fine with 30FPS on a lot of games (like JRPG's as you can see in the image). I still play a lot on my Switch and Vita. Had my Steam Deck since March 2022. Busy dad who plays mostly handheld now.
- Initial Experience - I bought from IndieGoGo, it's a 1TB B.Duck model, put my "contribution" in November 4th and had it in my hands by January 12th. Ordered a spare battery at the same time, they put it in the box along with it, no extra shipping charge, battery was like $25. Just bought it because I plan on using this for a long time. AyaSpace was meh, but it worked for me, I'm an IT professional by trade, but I'm not going to mess with much. Games launch fine, easy to adjust TDP, that's all I need. I did eventually install Handheld Control Panel, and I like it a lot more. After adjusting the fan curve I saw recommended by a YouTuber, it's nice and quiet. I play mostly at 20 watts or below, and almost exclusively handheld on the bus/train commute to/from work every day. Overall a pretty positive experience with a small learning curve.
  • The screen! Not as good as my Switch OLED, but a thousand times better than my Steam Deck.
  • Feels great to hold, aesthetics of the device are pretty much perfect
  • D-Pad is great for me on fighting games, sticks feel great, buttons feel great.
  • Performance is basically exactly what I hoped for, I can run most of the games I want to play at 1080/1200p (yes the difference from 800p to 1200p is worth it for me) and still get a couple hours of battery life.
  • Battery life is pretty good for me. Since I play a lot at 10w or so, I'm regularly getting 2hrs+. I do carry an extra battery bank with me in my backpack pretty much every time I go somewhere because I bring my backpack with me anyway. If I need it, I use it.
  • Docking station works great! No complaints
  • Multiple USB-C ports!
  • Fan is not noticeable until I get above 15 watts, but even then I can play it in bed next to my wife without her complaining. Stock fan curve was louder though.

  • Ayaspace, I mean like I said above, it is what it is. It works, freezes up infrequently, not my favorite interface for sure. Replaced it recently with Handheld Control Panel. Will give Ayaspace 2 a shot
  • Not as seamless as SteamOS 3.0, but I don't really care that much, I can do everything I need and play Honkai Star Rail and all my Xbox Game Pass games without a problem.
  • Price - It's a premium product, but there are equal or better performing products on the market now for significantly less. I'm happy with the $1050 USD I paid (total after everything) but I'm sure some people aren't.
  • LT and RT - the triggers are weird, but I've gotten used to them. The shape is weird, the travel is weird, but I'm accustomed to them now. I don't love them, but I'm used to them.

  • My B.Duck has the shell cracking, very happy to see they are going to deal with it for free, but we'll see how the process goes.
  • Fear of service. I treat my stuff super well, but I don't have the peace of mind with it like I do my Steam Deck. If something does break, so many unknowns, makes me nervous.
  • Not much of a community. The people who are active in Discord are awesome and a great resource, but it's a super small community compared to the Steam Deck. It's nice not having to deal with Linux fanboys though. ;)

Commentary (Random thoughts basically)
  • I don't care that they are releasing a new product every few months, it's a business, and mine isn't going to suddenly stop working when they release a new one.
  • I'm a minor videophile, not crazy like some, but I do value a good screen. The screen on the Ayaneo 2 is good enough to make me not even want to touch my Steam Deck unless it's for a very specific purpose
  • I don't miss the trackpads, I tried to force myself to use them for several hours in RimWorld, but I just don't like them. If I want to play a mouse heavy game, I sit at my desk and use a mouse.
  • I feel the price is worth it. I've held the Ally at a local Best Buy, and my Ayaneo 2 feels more premium, the no bezel design makes a HUGE difference.
  • I may consider doing the 7840u upgrade depending on price
  • I don't buy into the "Valve supports the Steam Deck!" stuff. Valve releases constant updates for SteamOS because they are building a new OS, so they HAVE to release updates. As long as AMD supports the chipset and Microsoft continues to release Windows updates, I don't see a major difference.
  • SteamOS 3.0 was a little rough back in Q2 2022, lots of small issues, I've honestly had an overall smoother experience with Windows. It launches my games, that's all I need it to do, the rest of the stuff is fluff that I'm not worried about.

I could go on more, but I don't think it's worth it.
8.5/10 - not perfect, but it doesn't have to be. Would have loved OLED or that upcoming Mini-LED. Performance meets my needs, screen is beautiful, comfortable to hold for an hour or more, controls are excellent.
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2023.06.10 23:16 BigTerminator [WTS][US-MD][H] MiniDSP SHD + UMIK-1, 2x SMSL SU8-V2 Balanced DAC, Mr Speakers (DCA) Alpha Primes + Custom Balanced Cable [W] Paypal

Hello, selling a bunch of audio gear I don't use anymore. Everything is in very good condition. All prices shipped.
Selling the SHD plus SMSL's as I went from 2 channel to multichannel in my home theater. I am selling the mic as I already own a UMIK-1, got this one from purchasing a DDRC-24, it is pretty much brand new as uses USB Type C. Bought LCD-X's so the Alpha Primes have not been getting used, they are still excellent closed back cans. Timestamp:
MiniDSP SHD: $700
MiniDSP UMIK-1: $100
Two SMSL SU8-V2's: $140 each
Alpha Primes with unbalanced DUM cable: $500
Custom Balanced Cable for Dan Clark Audio Headphones: $40
I can also make a balanced an unbalanced adapter for that cable for $20 with the same wire and look. If you have any questions let me know!
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2023.06.10 23:16 Little_Finch802 Should I email a company that did not select me?

Normally I would absolutely not email somewhere if I got rejected but I think I messed up. I used a jobsite and when prompted clicked "I need help relocating" or something like that when I should have clicked "I am planning to relocate". When I check my application status an hour after applying, it said it was rejected.
This job was entry level but very specific. It involves working in a certain type of lab that are not common around me - I only know of 2 within a 20 hour drive. It is exactly the work that I want to go into, and I was so excited to see they were hiring. I had gone to school for my degree and taken a few courses around this subject and studied it a lot on my own time. I have all of the qualifications required for the job.
My reason for choosing "I need help relocating" was because the listed wage was $2 above minimum, but I would need at least $5 above minimum to afford renting in that area. I'm currently living at home, which is 2 hours away from the lab. While I do have a car currently, it is not in great shape would not make the trip on a daily basis. I'm wondering now if I should email and explain the situation.
Should I email the company? I'm worried they will think I am harassing them. Is there any point in asking them if they'd pay $5 over minimum (instead of $2) for a job that requires a degree?
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2023.06.10 23:16 the_judge1901 Who will win the Ballon D'or this year?

With the conclusion of the champions league final and Man City achieving the treble, who will win the Ballon D'or? Will it be Messi due to his all time world cup performance and a final farewell gift from Eurpe? Or will it be Haaland, City's robotic monster? He has had a record breaking season.
De Bruyne has a case for it as well however him getting injured early on might pull folks to the other players. But if you ask me who has been City's most consistent performer all season, it has been Rodri. Not due to his winning goal but he is the near perfect defensive midfielder. Stones and Ederson have also been fantastic.
So who do you think will win the Ballon D'or this season? I think it will be Messi.
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2023.06.10 23:15 theonethatgotlost I miss him a lot but I don’t know if I like him?

I genuinely cannot stop thinking about the guy (23) that I (F23) met in my trip in Asia. I’m originally from Europe and it has always been my dream to visit Asia which happened. I stayed in a shared house and met amazing people. Just beware, this is going to be a long story. In a share house it is just common for people to come and go including me, I was staying for 3 months and I am planning to come back and stay even longer. I always just work back home travel around and then come back home again to work since the euro currency is strong.
One month in my trip, someone new joined and we were all excited. From the profile picture that we saw when he got added to the group we already assumed he was an out-going person. When we saw him in person he was to be honest really cute. Fast forward we later found out he had a gf and we totally respected that and I got along pretty well with his gf she’s a sweetheart and we have a lot in common. She had to leave however due to visa and after three days she left the country. So it was LDR for those two.
However, I still respected their relationship and we just talked. That’s how we kind of found out we were really alike and we liked the same things and humour was also similar. I was genuinely excited to have met someone who could match my level in terms of being active etc. We would go on evening walks together, go out and dine at restaurants, shop together etc.
Or when I was just feeling down he would talk to me and ask what was going on and stayed up until late at night. I think the latest was like until 4 AM. He would sometimes cook as he knew I liked miso soup he would scoop a bowl for me just things like that. Or I would watch a show and it would be our show since he would randomly join mid-way.
Naturally I started to question myself, am I just excited to have met someone that is just really likeable or is this some other feeling that I have?
I also started to notice that he would rarely mention his girlfriend, only when the other people in the sharehouse would question about her. I sometimes also brought her up just in case that he would not cross the line.
I eventually had to leave, but I promise everyone to come back and he worked from the lounge so that he could wave me goodbye and spend the last time together. After I left he would still text me and also just in a GC of me another girl and I because we would play wordle daily.
He then texted me that he needed help and that he was doubting his relationship with his girlfriend. He showed me their conversation and how she was talking about it would not work out because of different lifestyles. I gave him advice and told them that they should work it out via call or in person since she would return back to the sharehouse in two weeks and he agreed. I got the update that they rekindled and that made me happy but also lonely.
Was I feeling lonely because I felt like I wanted what they have, a relationship?
Because during this all I was also talking to another guy and I would go to him for advice. He did tell me that I should drop the guy and that he didn’t deserve me etc. However I took it as a sign that he was really an asshole because the guy turned out to be an asshole.
I’m just really confused. I deactivated all my social media platforms because I feel super distracted not only because of this however it does play a factor. I really hope he does not read this however he does have Reddit I think. So if you do see this I’m sorry.
I genuinely do not want to do the wrong thing.
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2023.06.10 23:15 AndrewHeard Why didn’t Smallville try to become Roswell 2.0?

I’ve been rewatching the show for a writing project and something occurred to me. Roswell had the reports of an alien space ship supposedly landing in or near the town. They’ve turned it into a whole business. People are coming from around the world to see the place which supposedly had an alien space ship landing.
Smallville had a literal meteor shower fall on the town. There’s actual evidence of things falling from the sky. Yet people like Dr Hamilton who sells meteor rocks along the side of the road are obscure scientists.
Why wouldn’t Smallville try to take advantage of the situation?
The most they did was change their incoming sign to “Meteor Capital of the World”. Seems like they could’ve done a lot more than they did with it.
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