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I Am A Killer - Death Row Documentary
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The subreddit for I Am A Killer, Netflix's new death row documentary. Share links, discuss the show and share your thoughts.
2018.04.16 20:44 Netflix/A+E I Am a Killer: Death row inmates give first hand accounts of their crimes
Netflix/A+E I Am a Killer Docuseries: Documentary with death row inmates give first hand accounts of their crimes
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2023.06.09 14:26 Ok_Money2334 Jumping from 0.25 to 1.0
First a quick progress update: 27M 5’7’’ SW: 227 CW: 215 GW: 180. I lost 12 lbs over the first 3 weeks and today is basically the end of the 4th week and it looks like I didn’t lose any weight this week, but I’m not complaining about 12lbs.
I took my 4th dose of 0.25mg this past Sunday 6/9/24. I noticed the fourth dose didn’t seem to feel as effective since over the last week I have been hungrier (though not totally “ravenous”). Did anyone else experience effects sort of wearing off towards the end of the dose? I assume this is a sign that I’m ready to move up.
Now for the interesting part. My doctor was willing to move me up from 0.25 to 1.0 because of my lack of side effects and to help fight the shortage. Luckily I was able to get a box of 1.0 a few weeks ago. Today is Friday 6/9 and I took my first shot of 1.0. I am also changing my dosing day from Sundays to Fridays because I feel like it will force me to make better decisions over the weekend especially since I notice the wegovy working the most on the first few days after the dose. So far it seems to feel totally fine, a little bit of lightheadedness and nausea after working out but it goes away.
Has anyone else skipped? What has your experience been? Are there any issues getting 1.7mg?
Thanks!
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I took my 4th dose of 0.25mg this past Sunday 6/9/24. I noticed the fourth dose didn’t seem to feel as effective since over the last week I have been hungrier (though not totally “ravenous”). Did anyone else experience effects sort of wearing off towards the end of the dose? I assume this is a sign that I’m ready to move up.
Now for the interesting part. My doctor was willing to move me up from 0.25 to 1.0 because of my lack of side effects and to help fight the shortage. Luckily I was able to get a box of 1.0 a few weeks ago. Today is Friday 6/9 and I took my first shot of 1.0. I am also changing my dosing day from Sundays to Fridays because I feel like it will force me to make better decisions over the weekend especially since I notice the wegovy working the most on the first few days after the dose. So far it seems to feel totally fine, a little bit of lightheadedness and nausea after working out but it goes away.
Has anyone else skipped? What has your experience been? Are there any issues getting 1.7mg?
Thanks!
2023.06.09 14:18 AlexsMudkip Aikatsu Stars! My Special Appeal Winter Coords QR codes.
Hey All, I finally got around to getting one of the Aikastu 3ds games on my 3ds. I read that the winter coords are in fact in the game but can only be acquired by QR scan. I am specifically looking for the my little heart winter coords and the shiny smile. I have dug the internet to find a single QR code but no luck. I was thinking of maybe buying the cards, but even finding a seller with the cards available is challenging. Just wondering if anyone has any of these cards would they be willing to share a scan? Thanks <3
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2023.06.09 13:57 EgyptianArtist (Hobby/Rev share) 2D animator needed for side scroller
we're a small team that's working on a 2D side scrolleMoba/Smash game hybrid that's inspired by awesomnauts and brawlhalla, the name is Golem Rumble (name subject to change) it's based in a medieval fantasy setting, it revolves around a tournament where wizards compete using golems they've made, the player will be controlling the golems as their characters as they fight NPC creeps and opposing players in 5v5 matches in an attempt to break through enemy walls and eventually destroy their main base (once again, gamemode subject to change), for the actual combat system it'll be taken from Smash type games, all players will start the match with only their normal attacks, but as they kill creeps and enemy players they'll collect "runes" which is basically a form of currency that they can use to buy their special attacks or "mana charges" back at their base, obviously you got the usual neutral, side, down and up, just the usual shtick, now personally i can handle the character design , staging and programming myself, but we quickly ran into a brick wall as i realized that i am simply no good as an animator and that's why we need someone to animate the player characters, environment and NPCs, altho i do NOT expect you to do this solo, i will help at any chance i can and you are allowed to take breaks whenever you want for however long you want, trust me, i've been there, you won't be kicked out for inactivity BUT the more breaks you take and less work you do the less your share of the revenue will be, if you're at all interested feel free to DM me at discord Begad#5128
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2023.06.09 13:23 prodankslayer Upcoming AAA PS4 titles before it is phased out completely
Assassin's Creed: Mirage, Lies of P, Black Myth Wukong are some good titles that I am aware of. Wanted to have this in sight because I want to sell my PlayStation 4 and buy a PlayStation 5 only when games stop coming for PS4.
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2023.06.09 13:22 ReallyWillie7 Bitten by venomous snake
(Let me preface this with the fact that there have been several sightings of a large rattlesnake in our neighborhood over the last few days that I’m aware of, but haven’t been overly concerned about other than I scan the yard while my dogs are out, and i currently reside in Florida)
I woke up in my bed, and it was still dark outside. It was my house, my room, but not irl and one I’ve never seen irl. Two teenaged girls come in- in fact there are teens all over the house. Apparently I am helping them in some way- runaways? Troubled? But they see me as their friend and mentor. We make small talk as I go to my closet and rummage through clothes to wear - it’s surprisingly sparse and I throw on a robe. I go out into the main room of the house- it’s an open floor plan (similar to my old house) with kitchen to my right, open living and dining room and two bedrooms on left side. A teen boy is sprawled on a bed in a bedroom that’s largely open and to me seems like a converted covered porch. He says “this was xxxs bedroom.” I said “this is my sons room. Do you mean the people who lived here before us?” Before he could answer I noticed all the windows had been left open all night, in the whole hoise, and suddenly the place is FULL of snakes and lizards. They’re everywhere, on everything. I grab a large kitchen knife - tell the young man not to touch anything living unless it’s a lizard. If he’s willing to, get those outside. I start killing snakes - I like snakes, so when possible I identify the species with my phone before dispatching it. The good snakes are given to the boy and put outside. Outside looks like swamp through the windows. I kill several venomous snakes, and go towards the bedroom and see a very small one. I strike to kill it and it bites me on the left knee - I identify it as “King snake - HIGHLY VENOMOUS” on my app and strike it again, then take a pic. “We have to go to the ER right now!” I yell through the house, to the girls who I presume are still in my bedroom. They all come out, and I tell them to call 911 and tell them what happened and where we’re going and to get antivenom ready for when we get there.
Outside the house now isn’t a swamp (like what I saw through the windows) it’s an older, kind of dilapidated neighborhood, similar to what I’d see in the town we used to live in - basically my old neighborhood but old and everything falling apart.
We pile in two different vehicles, apparently everyone wants to go. The one I sit in has a bunch of boxes in the backseat with me and my vision of what’s going on is largely impaired. We stop, and we all jump out and it’s not the ER, it’s one of the girls friends houses - she’s just bought it and moved in and they wanted to see. I start telling that we need to get to the ER NOW, id just been bitten by the deadliest snake in our area. I’m annunciating every letter, like Paul Holes 🤣 I guess my husband was at work, I texted him to let him know what was happening but the text was all jumbled like I couldn’t control my fingers or think clearly?
We get there and it’s like an old house that has been converted to a hospital. I go through the front and they are waiting for me, take me through to a front room type area that has a gurney type bed, and help me hop up. They bring both my legs onto the gurney and I pull up the pic of the snake and say that I dunno, he was pretty small and I’d already chopped him once, and I didn’t feel any pain so maybe I didn’t get any venom? But when I looked at my knee it was black.
Then my alarm went off 🤦🏼♀️
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I woke up in my bed, and it was still dark outside. It was my house, my room, but not irl and one I’ve never seen irl. Two teenaged girls come in- in fact there are teens all over the house. Apparently I am helping them in some way- runaways? Troubled? But they see me as their friend and mentor. We make small talk as I go to my closet and rummage through clothes to wear - it’s surprisingly sparse and I throw on a robe. I go out into the main room of the house- it’s an open floor plan (similar to my old house) with kitchen to my right, open living and dining room and two bedrooms on left side. A teen boy is sprawled on a bed in a bedroom that’s largely open and to me seems like a converted covered porch. He says “this was xxxs bedroom.” I said “this is my sons room. Do you mean the people who lived here before us?” Before he could answer I noticed all the windows had been left open all night, in the whole hoise, and suddenly the place is FULL of snakes and lizards. They’re everywhere, on everything. I grab a large kitchen knife - tell the young man not to touch anything living unless it’s a lizard. If he’s willing to, get those outside. I start killing snakes - I like snakes, so when possible I identify the species with my phone before dispatching it. The good snakes are given to the boy and put outside. Outside looks like swamp through the windows. I kill several venomous snakes, and go towards the bedroom and see a very small one. I strike to kill it and it bites me on the left knee - I identify it as “King snake - HIGHLY VENOMOUS” on my app and strike it again, then take a pic. “We have to go to the ER right now!” I yell through the house, to the girls who I presume are still in my bedroom. They all come out, and I tell them to call 911 and tell them what happened and where we’re going and to get antivenom ready for when we get there.
Outside the house now isn’t a swamp (like what I saw through the windows) it’s an older, kind of dilapidated neighborhood, similar to what I’d see in the town we used to live in - basically my old neighborhood but old and everything falling apart.
We pile in two different vehicles, apparently everyone wants to go. The one I sit in has a bunch of boxes in the backseat with me and my vision of what’s going on is largely impaired. We stop, and we all jump out and it’s not the ER, it’s one of the girls friends houses - she’s just bought it and moved in and they wanted to see. I start telling that we need to get to the ER NOW, id just been bitten by the deadliest snake in our area. I’m annunciating every letter, like Paul Holes 🤣 I guess my husband was at work, I texted him to let him know what was happening but the text was all jumbled like I couldn’t control my fingers or think clearly?
We get there and it’s like an old house that has been converted to a hospital. I go through the front and they are waiting for me, take me through to a front room type area that has a gurney type bed, and help me hop up. They bring both my legs onto the gurney and I pull up the pic of the snake and say that I dunno, he was pretty small and I’d already chopped him once, and I didn’t feel any pain so maybe I didn’t get any venom? But when I looked at my knee it was black.
Then my alarm went off 🤦🏼♀️
2023.06.09 13:21 Magdaki "Descent Into Darkness: Fantasy RPG Ambience & Themes Volume 2" - Jason Bernard [Orchestral/Ambient/Rock]
I am pleased to share with you my latest album of songs inspired by D&D, and other TTRPGs. The title track will have you travelling along with a party as they prepare to enter the darkness in search of fame, fortune, and maybe saving the world (you know if they have time). I hope you enjoy them, and as always thanks for listening!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AiGmYBkzBX4&list=OLAK5uy_ngtAqmhZVFZkKhiSIMspOEw2zGzYkkce8
https://open.spotify.com/album/1PRSjLegHzDBFIBPhyujFF
https://music.apple.com/us/album/descent-into-darkess-fantasy-rpg-ambience-themes-volume/1687206163
https://music.amazon.ca/albums/B0C4V6YFTT
https://preview.redd.it/m2e9slce8z4b1.png?width=1024&format=png&auto=webp&s=df3ccfbf7e6b222a687495e040a68c7fbd12d367
The Story So Far...
Evil is on the move in their sinister lairs. Heroes are called upon to thwart their wicked schemes. Travel is made difficult by the overbearing oppression of the spirit - only the bravest may move forward. Bravery is not enough as battles will be fought against vicious packs of minions, and their evil masters. Some will die, and this is certainly tragic; however, others will lose their minds, or even their souls down in the Darkness.
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AiGmYBkzBX4&list=OLAK5uy_ngtAqmhZVFZkKhiSIMspOEw2zGzYkkce8
https://open.spotify.com/album/1PRSjLegHzDBFIBPhyujFF
https://music.apple.com/us/album/descent-into-darkess-fantasy-rpg-ambience-themes-volume/1687206163
https://music.amazon.ca/albums/B0C4V6YFTT
https://preview.redd.it/m2e9slce8z4b1.png?width=1024&format=png&auto=webp&s=df3ccfbf7e6b222a687495e040a68c7fbd12d367
The Story So Far...
Evil is on the move in their sinister lairs. Heroes are called upon to thwart their wicked schemes. Travel is made difficult by the overbearing oppression of the spirit - only the bravest may move forward. Bravery is not enough as battles will be fought against vicious packs of minions, and their evil masters. Some will die, and this is certainly tragic; however, others will lose their minds, or even their souls down in the Darkness.
2023.06.09 13:20 nemotiger Is there an ideal? Thanks.
I "think" the ideal fem is to soften, and i "think" the ideal masc is the thicken.
I also think it had to do a lot with pitch, (size?) And i am starting to be less certain that it has to do with how fast or smooth one talks.
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I also think it had to do a lot with pitch, (size?) And i am starting to be less certain that it has to do with how fast or smooth one talks.
2023.06.09 13:14 CorinneDuyvis Window covering options
 | We currently have large top-down bottom-up honeycomb blinds in our living room. We love these for several reasons: submitted by CorinneDuyvis to HomeDecorating [link] [comments]
Insurance might reimburse us but I'm not sure what we'd get as a replacement. We'd love TDBU honeycomb, but we fear the exact same thing might happen. In terms of cat-proof window coverings, there's plastic/wooden blinds, perhaps vertical ones, but we'd lose so many of the advantages of our current setup that I'm not thrilled about those options. Am I overlooking anything? |
2023.06.09 13:09 These-Canary-8015 [36/F] Looking for a good chat
I am an adult female living in the UK who is now looking for new friends.
I have long waist length hair and enjoy watching films, reading novels, and travelling. I love meeting new people and sharing experiences of each other's lives.
I work very hard at my job, but I also enjoy relaxing and having fun in life. I enjoy exploring the towns and markets of the UK, walking along beautiful country lanes and learning about the culture and history of the area.
I hope to find some like-minded people who I can meet to sample good food, explore new places or just chat together in the comfort of my home. If you share my interests, drop me a line and I look forward to getting to know you!
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I have long waist length hair and enjoy watching films, reading novels, and travelling. I love meeting new people and sharing experiences of each other's lives.
I work very hard at my job, but I also enjoy relaxing and having fun in life. I enjoy exploring the towns and markets of the UK, walking along beautiful country lanes and learning about the culture and history of the area.
I hope to find some like-minded people who I can meet to sample good food, explore new places or just chat together in the comfort of my home. If you share my interests, drop me a line and I look forward to getting to know you!
2023.06.09 12:59 YouAssofHey Potion capacity question
 | I claimed the reward to increase my maximum potions (showed 5/6 potions), the servers crashed, and upon logging in have a maximum of 5. Am i misunderstanding the reward/dreaming I saw 5/6 or is this a bug? submitted by YouAssofHey to diablo4 [link] [comments] |
2023.06.09 12:45 OkFisherman3579 22 [M4F] Birthday Bash
As the title says, I'm 22 who is turning 23 in a month (July 8th.), who lives at Metro Manila, hopefully your near me.
I'm posting here because I'm looking for someone who can celebrate it with me, since parents are currently on a business trip overseas and I just wanna zing with someone or is there even such a thing lol, I'll be celebrating it at my house with some inner circle friends since I am not a club person nor am I an introvert, I just never feel like it to go to clubs.
Posting early, para before the day comes that I celebrate my birthday atlease, I got to know someone who sees me for who I am, who values my worth and all that kind of stuff, and obv. I wanna take things slow because and only because the last time I rushed things ended up fucking with me, (ex cheated twice), so yeah if your interested whenever. just hmu.
abt me:
*Fil/Chi
*5'10
*loves dogs
*athletic
*loves playing games
*has work and business
*eating and working out are my hobbies
*writes poems
*ain't sweet but can be if we vibe
*10/10 said by friends but for me I'm only 8/10
*chinito/mestizo
abt you:
nothing, as long as you are yourself, that's good enough for me oh and a + if your a jolly person.
P.S. I don't use TG (non-nego)
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I'm posting here because I'm looking for someone who can celebrate it with me, since parents are currently on a business trip overseas and I just wanna zing with someone or is there even such a thing lol, I'll be celebrating it at my house with some inner circle friends since I am not a club person nor am I an introvert, I just never feel like it to go to clubs.
Posting early, para before the day comes that I celebrate my birthday atlease, I got to know someone who sees me for who I am, who values my worth and all that kind of stuff, and obv. I wanna take things slow because and only because the last time I rushed things ended up fucking with me, (ex cheated twice), so yeah if your interested whenever. just hmu.
abt me:
*Fil/Chi
*5'10
*loves dogs
*athletic
*loves playing games
*has work and business
*eating and working out are my hobbies
*writes poems
*ain't sweet but can be if we vibe
*10/10 said by friends but for me I'm only 8/10
*chinito/mestizo
abt you:
nothing, as long as you are yourself, that's good enough for me oh and a + if your a jolly person.
P.S. I don't use TG (non-nego)
2023.06.09 12:30 Entire-Band7358 Ponzi schemes and other fraudulent investment opportunities
 | Dear Ausbiz, submitted by Entire-Band7358 to AusBiz [link] [comments] I am writing to inquire about your promotion practices and policies in regards to investment opportunities. Recently, I have noticed that Ausbiz has been promoting Qoin, a digital currency, which has been accused of being a Ponzi scheme by many experts and authorities. As a concerned citizen and investor, I am curious to know if Ausbiz has any policies in place to ensure that the investment opportunities you promote are legitimate and not fraudulent. I would like to know whether Ausbiz has conducted any due diligence on Qoin before promoting this investment opportunity to your viewers. Furthermore, I would like to inquire about your stance on Ponzi schemes and other fraudulent investment opportunities. Does Ausbiz normally promote such schemes without conducting proper research and analysis? Or does Ausbiz prioritize promoting safe and legitimate investment opportunities to protect its viewers from financial harm? I appreciate your attention to this matter and look forward to your response. https://youtu.be/IJ2-PYr5_Yc |
2023.06.09 12:28 StuBeck Most pencil like pen?
I’m finally biting the bullet get ordering a remarkable 2, but am not sure if there are better options out there that act like a pencil? I’m okay if this means I go through nibs constantly as well.
Having a built in eraser is very important, and a wider tip is good too. Currently I’m using .9 mm mechanical pencils for reference.
Any recommendations or is the one from store the best choice based on my erase requirement?
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Having a built in eraser is very important, and a wider tip is good too. Currently I’m using .9 mm mechanical pencils for reference.
Any recommendations or is the one from store the best choice based on my erase requirement?
2023.06.09 12:18 TechnicalSituation49 If find SDXL a bit naff, could someone text it for me
Hi,
I am using dreamstudio and i simply put the prompt "An Orange". Now when I swap to any other model except SDXL i get exactly that. However when I select SDXL I get something random every time which heavily uses the color orange but is never an orange. I was wondering if I was using a old version of the model or something. I know there are a few SDXL users out there . Would any of them like to try and see what they get (hopefully An actual Orange)
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I am using dreamstudio and i simply put the prompt "An Orange". Now when I swap to any other model except SDXL i get exactly that. However when I select SDXL I get something random every time which heavily uses the color orange but is never an orange. I was wondering if I was using a old version of the model or something. I know there are a few SDXL users out there . Would any of them like to try and see what they get (hopefully An actual Orange)
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I have Iman Gadzhi - Agency Incubator.
Iman Gadzhi – Agency Incubator course is one of the best products on how to start a marketing agency.
Over the span of 20+ hours, Agency Incubator has training that covers EVERY aspect of building an agency. This is almost a plug & play system with enough success stories to back it up! You name it... signing clients, running killer Facebook ads, building out your team, on-boarding clients, invoicing, sales... this course has everything covered for you!
The lessons inside Iman Gadzhi - Agency Incubator course include:
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2. Mindset
3. Systems & Processes
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2023.06.09 11:57 Tidewater75 1950’s Cause of Death
 | Greetings, submitted by Tidewater75 to DeathCertificates [link] [comments] I am trying to solve an old family mystery. I found a death certificate that differs from the story my spouse has grown up with. They were told that this person died in childbirth delivering twins, who also died. That is clearly not the case since the person appears to have been only 3 months pregnant. Thanks to anyone who is willing to help me understand the actual cause of death. It appears to be pneumonia? (Any idea what 490x means)? Thanks to anyone willing to take a look! |
2023.06.09 11:37 tenmileswide How much VRAM do you need to run WizardLM-30B-Uncensored?
I just tried running the 30b WizardLM model on a 6000 Ada with 48gb of RAM, and I was surprised that apparently that wasn't enough to load it (it gives me CUDA out of memory errors.)
I added a second 6000 Ada, and checked auto-devices in Oobabooga, but it still only tries to load into one GPU and I still get the CUDA errors.
If I then manually assign the memory under Transformers Parameters and try to generate text, I get 1 word out and then the below - am I missing something?
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871311069Z File "/uslocal/lib/python3.10/dist-packages/torch/nn/modules/module.py", line 1194, in _call_impl
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871316075Z return forward_call(*input, **kwargs)
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871321044Z File "/uslocal/lib/python3.10/dist-packages/accelerate/hooks.py", line 165, in new_forward
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871325819Z output = old_forward(*args, **kwargs)
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871330645Z File "/uslocal/lib/python3.10/dist-packages/transformers/models/llama/modeling_llama.py", line 687, in forward
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871335839Z outputs = self.model(
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871340914Z File "/uslocal/lib/python3.10/dist-packages/torch/nn/modules/module.py", line 1194, in _call_impl
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871345626Z return forward_call(*input, **kwargs)
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871350195Z File "/uslocal/lib/python3.10/dist-packages/transformers/models/llama/modeling_llama.py", line 577, in forward
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871355075Z layer_outputs = decoder_layer(
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871359749Z File "/uslocal/lib/python3.10/dist-packages/torch/nn/modules/module.py", line 1194, in _call_impl
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871364419Z return forward_call(*input, **kwargs)
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871369101Z File "/uslocal/lib/python3.10/dist-packages/accelerate/hooks.py", line 165, in new_forward
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871373799Z output = old_forward(*args, **kwargs)
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871378366Z File "/uslocal/lib/python3.10/dist-packages/transformers/models/llama/modeling_llama.py", line 292, in forward
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871383169Z hidden_states, self_attn_weights, present_key_value = self.self_attn(
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871407766Z File "/uslocal/lib/python3.10/dist-packages/torch/nn/modules/module.py", line 1194, in _call_impl
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871412741Z return forward_call(*input, **kwargs)
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871420081Z File "/uslocal/lib/python3.10/dist-packages/accelerate/hooks.py", line 165, in new_forward
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871425075Z output = old_forward(*args, **kwargs)
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871429621Z File "/uslocal/lib/python3.10/dist-packages/transformers/models/llama/modeling_llama.py", line 214, in forward
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871434281Z attn_weights = torch.matmul(query_states, key_states.transpose(2, 3)) / math.sqrt(self.head_dim)
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871440421Z RuntimeError: CUDA error: CUBLAS_STATUS_EXECUTION_FAILED when calling `cublasGemmStridedBatchedExFix( handle, opa, opb, m, n, k, (void*)(&falpha), a, CUDA_R_16F, lda, stridea, b, CUDA_R_16F, ldb, strideb, (void*)(&fbeta), c, CUDA_R_16F, ldc, stridec, num_batches, CUDA_R_32F, CUBLAS_GEMM_DEFAULT_TENSOR_OP)`
2023-06-09T09:34:31.957199231Z Exception in thread Thread-6 (gentask):
2023-06-09T09:34:31.957259702Z Traceback (most recent call last):
2023-06-09T09:34:31.957265475Z File "/uslib/python3.10/threading.py", line 1016, in _bootstrap_inner
2023-06-09T09:34:31.957771908Z self.run()
2023-06-09T09:34:31.957795137Z File "/uslib/python3.10/threading.py", line 953, in run
2023-06-09T09:34:31.957803033Z self._target(*self._args, **self._kwargs)
2023-06-09T09:34:31.957810624Z File "/workspace/text-generation-webui/modules/callbacks.py", line 73, in gentask
2023-06-09T09:34:31.957836158Z clear_torch_cache()
2023-06-09T09:34:31.957844233Z File "/workspace/text-generation-webui/modules/callbacks.py", line 105, in clear_torch_cache
2023-06-09T09:34:31.957851431Z torch.cuda.empty_cache()
2023-06-09T09:34:31.957859013Z File "/uslocal/lib/python3.10/dist-packages/torch/cuda/memory.py", line 125, in empty_cache
2023-06-09T09:34:31.958183722Z torch._C._cuda_emptyCache()
2023-06-09T09:34:31.958203742Z RuntimeError: CUDA error: device-side assert triggered
2023-06-09T09:34:31.958211374Z CUDA kernel errors might be asynchronously reported at some other API call,so the stacktrace below might be incorrect.
2023-06-09T09:34:31.958221393Z For debugging consider passing CUDA_LAUNCH_BLOCKING=1.
submitted by tenmileswide to PygmalionAI [link] [comments]
I added a second 6000 Ada, and checked auto-devices in Oobabooga, but it still only tries to load into one GPU and I still get the CUDA errors.
If I then manually assign the memory under Transformers Parameters and try to generate text, I get 1 word out and then the below - am I missing something?
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871311069Z File "/uslocal/lib/python3.10/dist-packages/torch/nn/modules/module.py", line 1194, in _call_impl
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871316075Z return forward_call(*input, **kwargs)
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871321044Z File "/uslocal/lib/python3.10/dist-packages/accelerate/hooks.py", line 165, in new_forward
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871325819Z output = old_forward(*args, **kwargs)
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871330645Z File "/uslocal/lib/python3.10/dist-packages/transformers/models/llama/modeling_llama.py", line 687, in forward
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871335839Z outputs = self.model(
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871340914Z File "/uslocal/lib/python3.10/dist-packages/torch/nn/modules/module.py", line 1194, in _call_impl
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871345626Z return forward_call(*input, **kwargs)
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871350195Z File "/uslocal/lib/python3.10/dist-packages/transformers/models/llama/modeling_llama.py", line 577, in forward
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871355075Z layer_outputs = decoder_layer(
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871359749Z File "/uslocal/lib/python3.10/dist-packages/torch/nn/modules/module.py", line 1194, in _call_impl
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871364419Z return forward_call(*input, **kwargs)
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871369101Z File "/uslocal/lib/python3.10/dist-packages/accelerate/hooks.py", line 165, in new_forward
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871373799Z output = old_forward(*args, **kwargs)
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871378366Z File "/uslocal/lib/python3.10/dist-packages/transformers/models/llama/modeling_llama.py", line 292, in forward
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871383169Z hidden_states, self_attn_weights, present_key_value = self.self_attn(
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871407766Z File "/uslocal/lib/python3.10/dist-packages/torch/nn/modules/module.py", line 1194, in _call_impl
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871412741Z return forward_call(*input, **kwargs)
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871420081Z File "/uslocal/lib/python3.10/dist-packages/accelerate/hooks.py", line 165, in new_forward
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871425075Z output = old_forward(*args, **kwargs)
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871429621Z File "/uslocal/lib/python3.10/dist-packages/transformers/models/llama/modeling_llama.py", line 214, in forward
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871434281Z attn_weights = torch.matmul(query_states, key_states.transpose(2, 3)) / math.sqrt(self.head_dim)
2023-06-09T09:34:31.871440421Z RuntimeError: CUDA error: CUBLAS_STATUS_EXECUTION_FAILED when calling `cublasGemmStridedBatchedExFix( handle, opa, opb, m, n, k, (void*)(&falpha), a, CUDA_R_16F, lda, stridea, b, CUDA_R_16F, ldb, strideb, (void*)(&fbeta), c, CUDA_R_16F, ldc, stridec, num_batches, CUDA_R_32F, CUBLAS_GEMM_DEFAULT_TENSOR_OP)`
2023-06-09T09:34:31.957199231Z Exception in thread Thread-6 (gentask):
2023-06-09T09:34:31.957259702Z Traceback (most recent call last):
2023-06-09T09:34:31.957265475Z File "/uslib/python3.10/threading.py", line 1016, in _bootstrap_inner
2023-06-09T09:34:31.957771908Z self.run()
2023-06-09T09:34:31.957795137Z File "/uslib/python3.10/threading.py", line 953, in run
2023-06-09T09:34:31.957803033Z self._target(*self._args, **self._kwargs)
2023-06-09T09:34:31.957810624Z File "/workspace/text-generation-webui/modules/callbacks.py", line 73, in gentask
2023-06-09T09:34:31.957836158Z clear_torch_cache()
2023-06-09T09:34:31.957844233Z File "/workspace/text-generation-webui/modules/callbacks.py", line 105, in clear_torch_cache
2023-06-09T09:34:31.957851431Z torch.cuda.empty_cache()
2023-06-09T09:34:31.957859013Z File "/uslocal/lib/python3.10/dist-packages/torch/cuda/memory.py", line 125, in empty_cache
2023-06-09T09:34:31.958183722Z torch._C._cuda_emptyCache()
2023-06-09T09:34:31.958203742Z RuntimeError: CUDA error: device-side assert triggered
2023-06-09T09:34:31.958211374Z CUDA kernel errors might be asynchronously reported at some other API call,so the stacktrace below might be incorrect.
2023-06-09T09:34:31.958221393Z For debugging consider passing CUDA_LAUNCH_BLOCKING=1.
2023.06.09 11:37 unsurecrushh unsure crush 21M and 21F
unsure crush
TL;DR: friend turned into kinda crush, she feels the same but is "unsure"
It´s a bit long and english isn´t my first language. Sorry for that in advance.
I (M,21) and her (F21) became friends in university 2 years ago. We studied for several classes together and had to repeat one class during the pandemic, which kinda brought us a bit closer. Fast forward to late summer of 2022 she opened up to me about her dog passing away recently and that she broke up with her ex boyfriend around march/april.
She was going through a rough time, so I offered to invite her to eat ice cream, which was a small gesture she appreciated. From this point everything is going very fast. No one caught romantic feelings but we are becoming pretty good friends. Hence, some common friends even asked if we were a couple or suggested that we´d be a great couple, this was around September 2022.
Since we hit it off so well and hearing the ideas of our friends I began to think about a relationship with her but I was aware that she wasn´t over her ex yet. However, late September I asked if she could imagine something between us in the future, suggesting that I´d wait until she is ready. She admitted to share the thought but rejected me.
That was fine though, I did not develop much feelings so I was okay with that but with time texts and meetups were more frequent and longer. The texts were very relationship-ish: telling me she´s on her way home, going out with her dog and I would do the same etc. also, she´d make the effort to walk from one building to another building after her class just to see me for like 5 min before I have to go to class.
There are also plenty of examples that show our couple-like behavior. First person to text when something happens? her and vice versa. When we meet, I always pick her up and drive her back home. But now comes the confusing and frustrating part...
We met like 2 weeks ago. We were taking a walk and she started to talk about relationships. She told me that she isn´t sure about a relationship with me and doesn´t want to lead me on. I answered, that I was aware of the fact, that she doesn´t want a relationship with me and that I am happy to be her friend. During the conversation she said something along the lines "I also don´t want you to be/feel like a placerholder until I meet someone and I don´t want to hurt you" but she also repeated herself that she isn´t sure about a relationship with me. I got the hint and tried to dig a bit deeper, trying to find out whats making her so unsure.
She didn´t open up, but I told her that she can´t control her emotions and if she doesn´t have feelings for me it is okay. I tried to reassure her that I am not mad or anything like that but eventually she told me her concern.
We have different cultural backgrounds. The culture of her Ex is closer to her culture than mine (I am not naming the cultures bc I am afraid this post could be pointed out due to the specifity). She explained to me how her Exes family was kinda harassing/bullying her and that she´s afraid to relive that again. Due to the increased cultural difference she thinks that it´s more likely.
I told her that I won´t accept anyone hurting her and that her wellbeing is the top priority. I agreed, that it might be challenging at first but not to such an extent that I will be disowned by my family or something like that. She said that her family would probably accept me, so the problem is more on my side. She was really hurt by her Ex and his family. I felt bad for her and told her that whatever she decides is the right decision and that I don´t want her to feel pain or even think of the fear that comes along with that. It felt like I was persuading her to tell me no. Eventually she sticked to her first decision and said no again.
Before she opened up, we were talking in the car and I mentioned that we´d have to minimize contact, because I am close to falling for her, which she didn´t really like. I experienced a lot of shit with abandonment and abuse in my past, so I feel like I have no choice but to protecting myself, especially from the scenario of her getting a bf and dropping me.
Couple of days later I was less avaliable but still friendly and behaving/talking normal to her. On tuesday she saw me for like 5 minutes before class, we were in a group of friends. Later at home I got a text from her saying that I looked sad today and if I am alright.
We agreed to call and talk. I was honest about dealing with the rejection but also mentioned other stuff bothering me right now (family health, work, uni). I also told her how the placeholder thing didn´t leave my mind and that if we keep things as they are I will inevitably be a placeholder, despite the both of us not wanting that. She kinda didn´t understand that fully.
She asked if I have a crush on her and I said "yes, kinda I am really close to falling for you or having like a real crush" and she said that she feels the same... but is unsure. I was so frustrated and confused but I took a deep breath and we talked again about the family topic, trying to reassure her. I also said that I am thinking about no contact for a while, so I can sort out my feelings and head, get all the shit done that needs to be done and come back as a good friend with no more intention of being a potential romantic partner. After I said that she again told me that she is unsure and that she needs time to think. She also explained to me that the next day she was thinking to herself if it was the right decision to reject me.
I told her if she needs time I will give her time to think and she said that she´s free next week to really think about this (I am pretty sure it´s because she wants to meet with her bff beforehand). Furthermore she asked if we can start no contact next week, which also got me like ??? she also said that the answer is most probably NO. I am at a loss right now.
At this point confusion is confused and I am also using the word unsure. I asked her what would help her. Keeping contact to get to know me even more? No contact to kinda see how it is for the both of us being apart (which she kinda found awkward). Hell, I also told her that I can talk to my parents about the topic in general and tell her what they´d have told me. But she didn´t like that and didn´t want to decide if we go no contact or keep it.
So I made the decision and said we go no contact and that she can think without being influenced by me. The ball is in her court now and we haven´t talked/texted since tuesday and it is torturing me. On the first hand I really like her, she is amazing and I´d do everything for her, I even told her that. I also was kinda there for her as a friend several tiomes and told her, that if as friends I am so invested in her wellbeing how it would be if she is my girlfriend?
Also do I want to be with someone who isn´t sure about me? Is there some other (personal) reason she doesn´t want to mention, because she doesn´t want to hurt me? Is something wrong with me? I was kicking depressions ass but now it´s getting kinda too much and my depression is now the one who is kicking (my) ass.
submitted by unsurecrushh to relationship_advice [link] [comments]
TL;DR: friend turned into kinda crush, she feels the same but is "unsure"
It´s a bit long and english isn´t my first language. Sorry for that in advance.
I (M,21) and her (F21) became friends in university 2 years ago. We studied for several classes together and had to repeat one class during the pandemic, which kinda brought us a bit closer. Fast forward to late summer of 2022 she opened up to me about her dog passing away recently and that she broke up with her ex boyfriend around march/april.
She was going through a rough time, so I offered to invite her to eat ice cream, which was a small gesture she appreciated. From this point everything is going very fast. No one caught romantic feelings but we are becoming pretty good friends. Hence, some common friends even asked if we were a couple or suggested that we´d be a great couple, this was around September 2022.
Since we hit it off so well and hearing the ideas of our friends I began to think about a relationship with her but I was aware that she wasn´t over her ex yet. However, late September I asked if she could imagine something between us in the future, suggesting that I´d wait until she is ready. She admitted to share the thought but rejected me.
That was fine though, I did not develop much feelings so I was okay with that but with time texts and meetups were more frequent and longer. The texts were very relationship-ish: telling me she´s on her way home, going out with her dog and I would do the same etc. also, she´d make the effort to walk from one building to another building after her class just to see me for like 5 min before I have to go to class.
There are also plenty of examples that show our couple-like behavior. First person to text when something happens? her and vice versa. When we meet, I always pick her up and drive her back home. But now comes the confusing and frustrating part...
We met like 2 weeks ago. We were taking a walk and she started to talk about relationships. She told me that she isn´t sure about a relationship with me and doesn´t want to lead me on. I answered, that I was aware of the fact, that she doesn´t want a relationship with me and that I am happy to be her friend. During the conversation she said something along the lines "I also don´t want you to be/feel like a placerholder until I meet someone and I don´t want to hurt you" but she also repeated herself that she isn´t sure about a relationship with me. I got the hint and tried to dig a bit deeper, trying to find out whats making her so unsure.
She didn´t open up, but I told her that she can´t control her emotions and if she doesn´t have feelings for me it is okay. I tried to reassure her that I am not mad or anything like that but eventually she told me her concern.
We have different cultural backgrounds. The culture of her Ex is closer to her culture than mine (I am not naming the cultures bc I am afraid this post could be pointed out due to the specifity). She explained to me how her Exes family was kinda harassing/bullying her and that she´s afraid to relive that again. Due to the increased cultural difference she thinks that it´s more likely.
I told her that I won´t accept anyone hurting her and that her wellbeing is the top priority. I agreed, that it might be challenging at first but not to such an extent that I will be disowned by my family or something like that. She said that her family would probably accept me, so the problem is more on my side. She was really hurt by her Ex and his family. I felt bad for her and told her that whatever she decides is the right decision and that I don´t want her to feel pain or even think of the fear that comes along with that. It felt like I was persuading her to tell me no. Eventually she sticked to her first decision and said no again.
Before she opened up, we were talking in the car and I mentioned that we´d have to minimize contact, because I am close to falling for her, which she didn´t really like. I experienced a lot of shit with abandonment and abuse in my past, so I feel like I have no choice but to protecting myself, especially from the scenario of her getting a bf and dropping me.
Couple of days later I was less avaliable but still friendly and behaving/talking normal to her. On tuesday she saw me for like 5 minutes before class, we were in a group of friends. Later at home I got a text from her saying that I looked sad today and if I am alright.
We agreed to call and talk. I was honest about dealing with the rejection but also mentioned other stuff bothering me right now (family health, work, uni). I also told her how the placeholder thing didn´t leave my mind and that if we keep things as they are I will inevitably be a placeholder, despite the both of us not wanting that. She kinda didn´t understand that fully.
She asked if I have a crush on her and I said "yes, kinda I am really close to falling for you or having like a real crush" and she said that she feels the same... but is unsure. I was so frustrated and confused but I took a deep breath and we talked again about the family topic, trying to reassure her. I also said that I am thinking about no contact for a while, so I can sort out my feelings and head, get all the shit done that needs to be done and come back as a good friend with no more intention of being a potential romantic partner. After I said that she again told me that she is unsure and that she needs time to think. She also explained to me that the next day she was thinking to herself if it was the right decision to reject me.
I told her if she needs time I will give her time to think and she said that she´s free next week to really think about this (I am pretty sure it´s because she wants to meet with her bff beforehand). Furthermore she asked if we can start no contact next week, which also got me like ??? she also said that the answer is most probably NO. I am at a loss right now.
At this point confusion is confused and I am also using the word unsure. I asked her what would help her. Keeping contact to get to know me even more? No contact to kinda see how it is for the both of us being apart (which she kinda found awkward). Hell, I also told her that I can talk to my parents about the topic in general and tell her what they´d have told me. But she didn´t like that and didn´t want to decide if we go no contact or keep it.
So I made the decision and said we go no contact and that she can think without being influenced by me. The ball is in her court now and we haven´t talked/texted since tuesday and it is torturing me. On the first hand I really like her, she is amazing and I´d do everything for her, I even told her that. I also was kinda there for her as a friend several tiomes and told her, that if as friends I am so invested in her wellbeing how it would be if she is my girlfriend?
Also do I want to be with someone who isn´t sure about me? Is there some other (personal) reason she doesn´t want to mention, because she doesn´t want to hurt me? Is something wrong with me? I was kicking depressions ass but now it´s getting kinda too much and my depression is now the one who is kicking (my) ass.
2023.06.09 11:30 MaroonCrow Prevent HDMI audio wake up delay
As per title. When a HDMI audio device starts playing audio (I am using a TV on one device and a monitor with speaker on another) the first half second to full second of sound is missed as the HDMI audio "wakes up".
Is there a way to force it to not go to sleep in the first place?
submitted by MaroonCrow to linuxquestions [link] [comments]
Is there a way to force it to not go to sleep in the first place?
2023.06.09 11:26 Legitimate-Mango-661 Should I accept a more challenging role in a new country or take on a comfortable role in my city with a 30% increase in wages ?
I am not able to make a decision; I am scared, and I have no one to discuss things like these with.
I recently received an offer for a role that I've been looking to break into for a very long time. The pay is good, and the location is in the same city as my residence. There is no reason for me to reject this role.
However, my current organization, in their attempt to retain me, has offered a very challenging and critical role based out of the USA. This is an upper management role, and in terms of career aspirations, it would be a major step up. I am only worried about what will happen if I fail. I do not have any experience working in such a challenging and business-critical role. I am afraid that I will fail and not be able to live up to the expectations. Additionally, I would have to move continents, which I am also very excited about.
Please help me decide: should I take up a more challenging role in a new country, or should I stick to my comfort zone and the role I've really wanted to break into, which comes with a 30% increase in my current wages?
submitted by Legitimate-Mango-661 to careerguidance [link] [comments]
I recently received an offer for a role that I've been looking to break into for a very long time. The pay is good, and the location is in the same city as my residence. There is no reason for me to reject this role.
However, my current organization, in their attempt to retain me, has offered a very challenging and critical role based out of the USA. This is an upper management role, and in terms of career aspirations, it would be a major step up. I am only worried about what will happen if I fail. I do not have any experience working in such a challenging and business-critical role. I am afraid that I will fail and not be able to live up to the expectations. Additionally, I would have to move continents, which I am also very excited about.
Please help me decide: should I take up a more challenging role in a new country, or should I stick to my comfort zone and the role I've really wanted to break into, which comes with a 30% increase in my current wages?
2023.06.09 11:09 soogyv niacinamide for dark underarms?
hi i have had dark underarms for a long time and im looking for product recommendations
things that have not worked for me: 1. glycolic acid: been using it for a year with no improvements 2. alpha arbutin: been using it for 3 months with very very minimal improvement so i will continue using it for now 3. changing to epilating and tweezing, i no longer shave
am planning to try: 1. TO niacinamide 2. kojie san soap
im also not sure if this is acanthosis nigricans because i dont have this problem in any other area of my body :(
if anyone has any suggestions or reviews please let me know! thank you :)
submitted by soogyv to Skincare_Addiction [link] [comments]
things that have not worked for me: 1. glycolic acid: been using it for a year with no improvements 2. alpha arbutin: been using it for 3 months with very very minimal improvement so i will continue using it for now 3. changing to epilating and tweezing, i no longer shave
am planning to try: 1. TO niacinamide 2. kojie san soap
im also not sure if this is acanthosis nigricans because i dont have this problem in any other area of my body :(
if anyone has any suggestions or reviews please let me know! thank you :)
2023.06.09 11:08 Blueblue-whiskey69 I am fed up of my family at this point
I (18M) have just completed 12th from the IB board and I came back home to be greeted with enormous pressure and I can't take it anymore. Its not like I have not faced pressure, its a combination of things. First off, my goddamn boards are over so I deserve a break and not be constantly bombarded with tasks and tensions from every family member. And I as a student have shown great achievements, first off I have an additional subject as music (cause extracurricular is needed for foreign universities) where in my performances have been played in IB virtual conferences at a global scale. On top of this I do 6 subjects and I have a consistent 35 above points out of 42 (which translates to about 95 - 96 percent or more than a 3.7 3.8 GPA, which according to me is insane since I passed 10th with just 89 percent (not really fancy at all.) On top of that in my CAS portfolio I have taken tasks which have leadership and organizational qualities (not a lot but I do have them nonetheless) (which is a necessary extracurricular component in IB). On top of that (yeah it continues) I have made a research paper draft of about 6000 words all while juggling the IB curriculum (a pretty intense curriculum according to world standards) and transferring between two schools and teaching probably 70 percent of my physics and math portion to myself since I had missing teachers in the first school (wow)). I know it sounds like I am blowing my own trumpet and its probably due to a couple of things.
First of all both the schools pampered me like crazy, I was treated like some sort of genius and that's probably why I have such a high sense of self worth, but I know that it was nothing but mere stupidity since the competition was shit and I didn't achieve excellence in any particular subject. Also the second reason is that I alone with my father whose strong suit really isn't directly supporting me and he basically left me to figure things out on my own and never really asked about my academics at all which makes me really irritated when someone does ask me (which happens on the regular with my mother and the rest of my family who welp constantly tell me to do this and that and so on and so forth). Its a difficulty I have on my end and I am trying to improve. At first I used to get angry at this, something for which all of my friends having the time of their life during these vacations was the catalyst for (and I mean EVERYBODY irrespective of their economic class or even academic performance, it not neither the trope of the business man's son who screws around all day, it was even with my middle class friends who were gaming all day enjoying non-stop, and not even the trope of the student who fails every time so he just does time pass all day everyday, it was everyone from my topper friends to those average students who were again going on trips having the time of their life) now I just get sad thinking that I am not even enough for them, it makes me feel as though all I did was worth nothing to them.
Now, from their shoes they are correct too because I will be facing global competition when I submit my application and anything that bumps up my score will be useful and they have pushed me in doing good things as well, like learning python which is interesting and useful and also really accentuates my profile a lot, they also made me enroll in an engineering mechanics course which was really interesting for me and probably holds great value, but they have sort made this prison of sorts where I can't really enjoy. Like, they want to me (and will probably force me to) continue my piano lessons and tell me to give examinations which is a weekly commitment that is going to drain my weekend of 3 hours (I know this does not sound like a lot but hear me out) coupled with the fact that they are pushing me to do another course, and have already enrolled me in a IIT Bombay course. They have also enrolled me in a German language course which is about 5 hours daily which is going to start from next month and although they teach me good things like cooking and keeping track of my applications, all of this combined makes me feel so claustrophobic and chained to be honest.
I feel (and this is my opinion which I am ready to mold because I have my flaws like blowing my own trumpet constantly) that it is wrong for them to literally make a prison cell for their child in a time where this probably my last vacation as a child free of responsibilities, and make an environment where in I have to hide from them to even have any fun (like playing games or watching series) since I will be dead if I got caught slacking off all of this while I am the only one who seems to studying and burdened while others are enjoying. Like I feel I am in right but also in the wrong so I would like to know your opinions on it, also thanks for reading till here if you have :)
I planned to post this yesterday but I got sucked into my daily routine (yeah I have a fucking routine in my vacations (wow so fun) and as you can see by my tone I am now tired of this prison at this point like I am fed up of my family)
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First of all both the schools pampered me like crazy, I was treated like some sort of genius and that's probably why I have such a high sense of self worth, but I know that it was nothing but mere stupidity since the competition was shit and I didn't achieve excellence in any particular subject. Also the second reason is that I alone with my father whose strong suit really isn't directly supporting me and he basically left me to figure things out on my own and never really asked about my academics at all which makes me really irritated when someone does ask me (which happens on the regular with my mother and the rest of my family who welp constantly tell me to do this and that and so on and so forth). Its a difficulty I have on my end and I am trying to improve. At first I used to get angry at this, something for which all of my friends having the time of their life during these vacations was the catalyst for (and I mean EVERYBODY irrespective of their economic class or even academic performance, it not neither the trope of the business man's son who screws around all day, it was even with my middle class friends who were gaming all day enjoying non-stop, and not even the trope of the student who fails every time so he just does time pass all day everyday, it was everyone from my topper friends to those average students who were again going on trips having the time of their life) now I just get sad thinking that I am not even enough for them, it makes me feel as though all I did was worth nothing to them.
Now, from their shoes they are correct too because I will be facing global competition when I submit my application and anything that bumps up my score will be useful and they have pushed me in doing good things as well, like learning python which is interesting and useful and also really accentuates my profile a lot, they also made me enroll in an engineering mechanics course which was really interesting for me and probably holds great value, but they have sort made this prison of sorts where I can't really enjoy. Like, they want to me (and will probably force me to) continue my piano lessons and tell me to give examinations which is a weekly commitment that is going to drain my weekend of 3 hours (I know this does not sound like a lot but hear me out) coupled with the fact that they are pushing me to do another course, and have already enrolled me in a IIT Bombay course. They have also enrolled me in a German language course which is about 5 hours daily which is going to start from next month and although they teach me good things like cooking and keeping track of my applications, all of this combined makes me feel so claustrophobic and chained to be honest.
I feel (and this is my opinion which I am ready to mold because I have my flaws like blowing my own trumpet constantly) that it is wrong for them to literally make a prison cell for their child in a time where this probably my last vacation as a child free of responsibilities, and make an environment where in I have to hide from them to even have any fun (like playing games or watching series) since I will be dead if I got caught slacking off all of this while I am the only one who seems to studying and burdened while others are enjoying. Like I feel I am in right but also in the wrong so I would like to know your opinions on it, also thanks for reading till here if you have :)
I planned to post this yesterday but I got sucked into my daily routine (yeah I have a fucking routine in my vacations (wow so fun) and as you can see by my tone I am now tired of this prison at this point like I am fed up of my family)